it's been a while since my last Journal, and at first, I didn't to publish this. But I feel like it may clear things up a bit. This might be relevant for people I am doing art trades with right now, so if you need the exact reason why I need a lot of time for things, this is it, I guess. (tagged you, but you don't have to read it. just making things easier- )
School has been very stressfull, like always, which is nothing new though. I am fighting to get my grades up, especially in math but there are a lot of things that are getting easier by now. Next to that I am still in the process of making my drivers licence, which is also going well. I can't deny that it takes a lot of time, though. So due to the stress, I became very moody and tired.
The thing is, and now is the point where things get serious, my family-situation got extremely worse.
So last week, me and my brother got into an argument over the goddamn wi-fi, as he forbid me to do my school-work and he simply grabbed me by my hair and punched me in the face multiple times with his bare fist.
When I tried to ask my parents for help my father somehow got angry at me ?? and when I went to the bathroom to have some time and well, cry aswell, he almost bet down the door, yelling and chasing me upstairs into my room, ordering me to stay in there. Well, my mother tried to help but only at the beginning. Things like these happened a few times already, over many years. 5 or 6, if I had to guess. So since noone was going to protect me, I broke down completely. The next day after school i simply grabbed my stuff and left my home. I went over to my boyfriends house whos family even let me stay untill monday, as I was too scared to go home.
Long story short, things are shit right now. I am trying really hard to keep on track, but it is simply not easy for me. If these things happen again, I will have to call the police (that's pretty much what my therapist told me to do) and even though I don't want to, I just can't take it anymore otherwise.
So yeah, if there is almost no activity from my side over here, that's pretty much why.
Right now my art status is pretty clear I guess,
EVERYTHING is closed untill this is over !
Right now I am working on the following trades:
I believe that was all, if I forgot someone, please tell me!! (This is only the trades though! )
I hope you understand my situation!!
And if you read this far, thank you for your time.